i am writing again^^ today i had a sad night =( I have to buy cigarette for my dad and frens =( people look at me like a big smoker like tt dun like =( I cannot send dear dear home =(
dear after i think and think i had answer already u ask me "wat if I could not send u home, some day" my ans to u is...
dear I noe if I always send you home one day ever send u home u will be sad but if i nv send u home means i miss the chance to see u for tt moment which u also miss the chance to see me during tt moment i want to spend as much time with as possible the few times tt I am not there will make u miss me and make u love me more... likewise this will make us cherish each other more
it was such a nice day today nothing went wrong met a wonderful new person miss cheong now i noe why Eileen is so close with her haha... i gt along well with her also was better than what i am expecting
i think what miss cheong say is true it is hard to come by when u love this person and this person love u too...
and... for me i met this person already and this perosn is none other than u...
it is late att night i was doing ur present 1/2 way and it did nt turn out well... i cant contiune already... sry girl... after tt... i dun have the mood to do... i really wanted to do for u... but i cant i jux dun have the mood already... my hands didn't want to work with me... at least for now...
gt a new phone^^ but i give it to my dad he was happy with the new phone^^
oh my... u found the acupoint to my mouth cannot disturb u liao =x gt a new number^^ i haven give everyone so anyone i miss out tell me ok^^ i will give my number ^^
the plan was good i feel cause it fits me well i dun call out and i only sms normally the plan hav free sms and free incoming call^^
love u even though u make me open my mouth today but i like to me u smile and laugh a the way^^ and heard u sing online =x
i didn't mean to make u cry today... cause you should know how much I love u
i didn't blame u... cause I was also at fault
i didn't want to show this sad side to u again... cause i know u will feel sad too
i didn't mean to make u feel that u are in wrong... cause i would be angry of myself
i didn't mean to love u to but i did and i know tt... u didn't mean to love me to but u did...
i didn't mean to love u so much but i did and... u didn't mean to love me so much to but u did...
since I love u so much right^^ why will i hurt u... i didn't mean to... cause...cause i really love u so very much already and u to love me so much already and this time i really did mean too...
today's RJ question make me think of some things this is the question :
If there is one thing that you want to change the most in the world or in your life, what that would be? Please explain
than i wrote :
There is one thing that I always hope since young but it seems impossible- a world where everyone will have eternal life. This is a world where people wouldn’t have to fear death. I wish for a world that has peace, no conflict, where troubles are hardly seen.
This is because since young I hated this word, which is called “part.” I hate to part with anyone, be it my friends, my family and now also the one I love. When I was young the first parting I had was my grandma, I felt so much pain even though I was only 10 years old back then. Now, I know what death is. Death is a word that can bring fear to people, a word where people choose to avoid, and a word that hurts me the most. Because this is a parting that will be forever where I will never ever be able see this person again.
This is a reason you see why I cherish everyone that comes by even more, to the close ones, like my parents (who are already in their 50’s and 40’s already), my sister, best friends and lastly this girl that I have recently been with.^^
This is because I always feel that it is not only old people that will pass on. Like recent times there are sicknesses that are incurable and spread very fast like the SARS, bird flu. Who knows when is the next break out? Who knows who will be the next to be the victim of this illnesses right? I might be here today but left with 10 days tomorrow.
Lastly, recently I had just accepted Christ and become a Christian. In this religion I learn about eternal life, life after death and all, which I am very happy with. Because it fulfil all that I have wish of and couldn’t have achieve. Where I found more hope in life. But still I cherish all that are with me and I am also afraid of losing someone for now especially this girl that I love….
Thanks Eileen <3
and ya eileen i was never angry of u not even a single bit
